Scary, but everything will be ok.

A few days ago, I noticed some spots on Faith’s sleeper.

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It looked like blood stains but there was no way it could have come from Faith.  She had no scratches on her chest.  No marks at all.  So I thought maybe it was from me?  Maybe blood from my breast milk got on her? But no… that wasn’t it.  I would have definitely noticed if I was expressing blood.  I would have had the same stains on my breast pads.  My clothes, breast pads, and nursing bras are all clean.  So I just thought that maybe it’s something that got on her clothes while I was doing a load of laundry?

Then again today, I noticed more spots on the same side of another sleeper …

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This spot was directly over her nipple.   I looked at her left nipple and saw nothing wrong.  It wasn’t swollen or red.  There were no scratches on it.  So the only thing I could think of was that blood was coming directly from her nipple!  I felt for any bumps, and she laughed because it tickled, so Faith wasn’t having any pain or discomfort.  She seemed completely fine.

I Googled “blood coming from baby’s nipple” to see if I could find any answers, and it turns out that it has happened to lots of babies that are exclusively breastfed .  The mother’s hormones are in the breast milk, and the baby is adjusting to these hormones.  It doesn’t sound dangerous, and I guess it goes away on its own in time without any problems.  However, I read that this is very rare in babies, so I was very worried.

Fortunately today was the day for Faith’s flu booster shot.  So while we were there I discussed this with the pediatrician.  She said she had never seen this before, and that she wanted to talk with a few other pediatricians about it.   Later this evening she called me and said that it should be nothing to worry about. She does believe it is because of hormones, and that it should go away in time.  I am keeping an eye on this, and if it persists, or if her other nipple starts to bleed, I will let the pediatrician know.

To all of my mommy readers that have breastfed or are breastfeeding  their babies… has this happened to your baby?  Does anyone out there have any additional information about this?  I would love to hear from you.

Faith did well taking her booster flu shot.  She is starting to remember shots :(  When we laid her on the table and the nurse wiped her leg with alcohol, Faith’s face changed straight to fear, and her eyes grew big.  Poor thing.  She cried when she got the shot, but she recovered pretty quickly this time because it was only one injection this time, instead of 3 or 4.   One shot, and it took just a few seconds, and then she was in my arms and already calming down.  Aaron grabbed a kid’s book to show her, and it helped her stop crying.  However, a few minutes into the book and she started crying again out of the blue.  She was remembering :(    I wish I could take those scary memories away from her.

She is fine now!  Back to her big smiles and laughs!  My tough girl :)

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“I don’t need no stinkin’ band-aid…”

 

 

Being a Stay at Home Mommy

I have been out of the work force for 8 months now.  Being a stay at home mom is the best job in the world.  I love being here with my daughter.  But these past 8 months have caused frustration for me as well.

I am use to working…  I mean being employed, having an hourly wage, and a weekly paycheck.  I miss it.  I left my job of 12 years to be a SAHM, which is a full-time job all by itself.  My home is my job.  Being a wife and mother is my job, and I take it very seriously.   Being a student is my job which is also a major priority.  I work very hard to maintain my 3.9 GPA.  I’m proud to be a dean’s list student, and member of Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society.

My former boss still offers me small jobs that I could do at home.  Web design is one of them.  I’m very thankful that my boss still needs me from time to time.  It’s nice to have some extra money.   However, the work is not on a regular basis, and the occasional small job = the occasional small paycheck.

I have had 8 months of joy, and frustration.   My plate is full already with housework, homework, and mommyhood.   The day slips by me so fast, and I don’t feel as productive as I want to be.  I want to earn money on a consistent basis.  I want to be able to earn money working at something that would fit into my day, every day.  Something that would not eat away at my homework time, housework time, mommy time or time with my hubby.   I yearn to contribute financially to my household.   I guess I just want to do it all… but I know I can’t.   NO woman can successfully do it all.  Something will have to give.  Maybe it’s time with your husband, or time with your children that will suffer if you are a full-time worker, part-time student, and clean freak.  Maybe it’s your grades, and housework that will suffer if you spend all the time you want with your husband and children, after working a full day.

And if you’re a blogger like me, maybe it’s your blog that suffers when you have so many other priorities.  Or maybe it’s your health that suffers.  I need time to exercise!  I am STILL trying to lose the baby fat.

I can’t find balance.  Where is the time to balance it all?  HOW can a woman do it all?   Please tell me.

I’ve been looking into ways of earning money online such as Mechanical Turk by Amazon.   Most of these jobs pay pennies.  Literally pennies.  I recently found one job on Mturk that payed a whopping $2.00… in exchange for 2 hours of work.  Nice.

My time is PRECIOUS!   There is not a single moment in a mother’s day that is not important!  Working for $2 for 2 hours is an insult!

There are other sites similar to Mechanical turk…

Clickworker

Cloudcrowd

Microworkers

I haven’t personally looked into these sites, but I am assuming they pay you pennies as well.

I crochet baby hats, and try to sell them on Etsy.  I have had a few sales, but nothing that would come close to being called an income.  I enjoy making hats for Faith, and I love crocheting, so I will continue doing this more for the love of the craft than for the money.

I have also tried to monetize my blog by using Google Adsense, but the Google ads displayed on my blog are NOT relevant to my content.  Instead of displaying ads like baby products, pregnancy, women’s health, cooking, photography, or parenting … Google’s Adsense has been showing cell phone ads, and my particular favorite … “Travel to Pakistan!”  Really!?

How many of my lovely women readers want to take a vacation to Pakistan?  Please send me an email, and let me know!

I refuse to show ads on my blog that will not benefit my readers.   Google Adsense should allow me to select only the categories of ads I would like to show, such as family, food, babies, etc.  Unfortunately Google Adsense does not offer this feature.  You are at the mercy of Google… they will display what they want to on your blog.

I have been offered payment in exchange for guest posts from other bloggers and advertisers.  This is a good option for me, but so far the guest posts I’ve been presented with are not relevant content for my readers. Here is a little snippet of what I get from these bloggers/advertisers … “What we are looking to do is guest blog on sites like yours. We will provide you fresh content written by our professionals.  Sports like wakeboarding, snowboarding, climbing, surfing, skateboarding, etc…”

Do any of my lovely women readers want to know more about wakeboarding?  Please send me an email, and let me know!

I also offer adspace for only $5 a month.  I would love to share other blogger’s sites that are similar to my own, or shops that sell baby or mommy products.  So far no one has been interested.

Then there is Liveops and AlpineAccess.  Both are legitimate customer service jobs done at home that pay on a consistent basis.  However, trying to maintain a phone conversation with a small baby next to me is impossible.  For those of you that know me, you can understand why I hardly ever answer my phone.  I can’t be a telemarketer, or try to offer technical support to a crabby person on the other end of the line when I have my own little crabby person grabbing at my pant leg.

All of the opportunities for earning money have been financial dead ends for me.  However, I am very thankful to have a well established, high-traffic blog, and I’m happy to have so many wonderful readers.  I love blogging.  I will never stop.

Before going to bed last night, feeling tired and frustrated … this video showed up on my Facebook newsfeed…

God is trying to tell me something…

Faith’s First Valentine’s Day ♥

I wanted to make Faith’s first Valentine’s day special.  Last night I made her some homemade suckers :)

So simple.  Just boiled some sugar and water with a little red food dye…

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We don’t have much money, but I found her the perfect little gift; a Valentine’s Day baby book at our local Family Christian bookstore.  I also got Aaron a card.  Sweet and simple.

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Pinky up!  And now she’s ready to open her gift.   She’s such a little lady :)

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Faith also got a cute little card from Mamaw and Papaw ♥

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I know she’s too young to remember her first Valentine’s Day, but I will always cherish it.  We had a wonderful morning ♥

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Happy Valentine’s Day!