Well, I no longer feel in control. I don’t know what to do. Feeling hopeless, and very frustrated due to my lack of knowledge concerning all of the pregnancy complications that could very well happen to me now.
The doctor wants me to go to the hospital tonight. I said no, and I scheduled another baby check-up two days from now, but I am wondering if I made the right decision. I went in for another routine urine sample, blood pressure check, weight check, cervical exam, non-stress test, and ultrasound on baby Faith. Everything looks great except that my blood pressure was 140/83.
My BP is going back up a bit, but everything else was fine. I weigh 166. Urine sample came back fine. Ultrasound was great. I got a cute little picture of Faith’s ear (which, by the way, looks just like Aaron’s ear.) I have attached earlobes, and Aaron has detached earlobes. Faith has Daddy’s earlobes. Big surprise. She is Daddy’s little girl, like I’ve always said :)
The non-stress test was great; baby’s heartbeat is strong, and her movements were frequent. However, I’m having no contractions. The doctor said I am 1 1/2 centimeters dilated, and 70% effaced. No big change for weeks now, and since my BP is climbing up again… he wants to induce.He said he would like me to go to the hospital tonight and have a medication called
Cervidil applied to my cervix to help me dilate and efface more. I would stay overnight and be monitored. The next morning they would start
Pitocin, and I may deliver in the afternoon sometime. He then told me that I would be at a higher risk for a c-section; around 30% compared to 10 to 15% if I were to just go into labor on my own. What if my cervix is still not ready for birth after the Cervidil is applied? Sometimes Cervidil doesn’t work. And what will happen when the Pitocin triggers strong contractions, but my cervix may not be ready for birth yet? I would be in for a long hard forced-labor, which in turn would pose the inevitable possibility of an epidural and c-section.
Although the baby is not in distress, the placenta is still working perfect, and my tests are all ok … I’m being told that my blood pressure is still a concern, and that as more time passes it can just get worse. It sounds like my inducement is for preventative reasons, instead of a medical emergency. I’m indecisive on what to do, and I’m extremely upset about this. I’m feeling defeated already, and labor hasn’t even begun.
Part of me thinks I should just go to the hospital tonight because if I wait 2 more days for the next baby check-up only to find out that I’m still not progressing, then I’ve wasted 2 days stressing over this and most likely having my blood pressure rise even more due to anxiety.
I’m just sitting here. Please help me pray for answers.
